Inspired by a story


So I lay in a pool of my own blood

The steady drop of it oneness with my heartbeat

Crimson red or tomato red I can’t say

Forgive me for my color blindness

At least now I can blame it on the loss of blood

They say when you’re about to die

Your life flash before you

But all I can hear is your voice

Repeatedly ,over and over

Like a broken record

Congratulation your wish is about to come true

Damm you cuz you cant even let this moment pass

I still as I  hear your voice in my head

You were the only one to ever scale the walls

I was surprised

But more surprised that you wanted to stay

When you started talking of the beauty outside

And I began to wonder what it was like

I got scared

When I started wishing to see it

I decided

You had to go

Now I hear you like I did the day I made you leave

Telling me one day if I don’t bring down my tower of thorns

Pricking anyone that dares come close

One day people will stop trying

And I’ll lay dying in my castle and nobody will help

Cuz  nobody will know and even if they do

They wouldn’t care

Well smartass

You were right

Silence ……..



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In a world full of questions and uncertainty

It’s easy to fall into despair about tomorrow

Fear about the things we can’t control

And even the things we could control

We fear we’re gonna end up being wrong about

Fear can be powerful

Fear can be crippling

Fear will literally hold you down to a place

Reduced to a shivering mess of body

Justified or unfounded.

They say fear is False Expectation Appearing Real

It’s not always false though

Like the response to the sight of a loose seemingly hungry lion

True or false

Do not give in

As always …..easier said than done

Lets start conquering our fear

It only has as much power as we’ll give it

Be in control




I felt the car welcome me as I stepped inside

Surrounded by steel and leather I feel at home

With a deep breath I inhale

The amazing smell of oil and everything that is this car

Hands to the key I felt the surge of energy

Pure, raw and uncut

I dare not turn the key

I dare not start

As much as I want to

Oh ! I want to

But I must not

Cuz I know at the end of the road is a ditch

And there’s no way to avoid it

But I itch to try

To be wild if only for a moment

Drive away without looking back

Forgetting  everything about being responsible

To let go and drift

But  nobody drift upstream I hear

Only downstream

Sometimes ignorance can be bliss

And knowledge a burden

Uneasy lies the head that wears the crown

And the struggle of the journey is what makes the destination worth it

But I wish…….

Turning the key I hear  it roar to life

Just a notch and……..

Down girl

I turned it off and stepped out

Unfucking easy is the head that wears the crown