MASOCHIST

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When will I accept it’s over

Dreaming about a love that will never be

When will my heart stop beating for you

When will I let go and move on

When will I forget and accept

Accept that you’ll never be mine

Please tell me if you know

That’s the least you could do for me

Each day you break my heart afresh

And I can’t even hate you for it

I must be a masochist

That is the only explanation I can give for still loving you

A LONG POEM ON HUMANITY

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It’s easy to observe when people don’t notice you

Walking down the street to the market

Head bent, hair covering my face

Hiding away from humanity

I know this route by heart

I could walk it eyes closed

I wish I could close my eyes

Or never come here

But survival calls

It’s the only market in the village

As usual and on time it unfolds again the wail of the little child

Sold to slavery by parents to the cruel master

Forced to grow up  above time

I looked up and I see his hand strike down the child

And a tear fall from my eye

That at least I can do

Little further down I saw the pretty bony girl

So pretty she should be a princess but life is cruel

Begging for food

As I walk down to give her something

I see a man grab her roughly

‘Leave her alone’ I heard myself say

Well I must be going crazy

Cuz am really sure he could toss me with just a finger

‘Am sorry’ I apologized and start to walk away

Through her eyes I saw her heart break

Sorry princess ,self preservation

Few steps more I  looked back

I saw him dragging her to an alley

Nobody paid attention ,giving way for the monster to pass

There and then I broke

So much injustice in the world

Nobody doing anything

Fuck this

I picked up a stone and charged at him

Surprised he turned and with that look he fell

Grabbing  the girl I placed myself in front of her

Facing the crowd expecting their ire

But nothing

Like nothing  happened, people continued on their path

Seeing my look of confusion

The girl whispered in my ear

‘Nobody cares’

And as the man start to come around

We took to our heels mixing with  people

Humans   with no humanity

 

 

INSPIRED BY A FANFIC STORY

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Like a hawk I watched you

As you struggled with your breath

So precious yet so broken

Helpless I looked on

As tired as you are,still trying to be brave

You shouldn’t need to be brave yet

You shouldn’t have to go through  this alone

I was supposed to protect you from all this

But not now

Not yet

I can’t let my anger show yet

I can’t let the grieve take over yet

Now it’s all about you

Now I have to be here for you,it’s the least I can do

Fuck it’s the only thing I can do

As your breath continue to slow

I can’t take my eyes off you

Now that you’re still with me

I can’t let it show yet

In a while I will

In a while the world will know just how much I hurt

In a while the world will know my hate for the hand it dealt me

My visions blurred but I cleared them

Each moment is precious

I can’t miss any

It will either help me get over you or be my undoing

I want to be undone

I wanna go with you

But I have to be strong for your momma

I doubt I can be of much help to her

As you take your last breath I feel my heart die with you

That’s odd because am still here  but you’re not

You came into our life and heart  not up to a year but l think forever can’t heal the wound you left

They say time heal all wound but I hope not

Because I don’t want to forget you

You were my baby

You are my baby

I was supposed to protect you from the bad of the world

But helpless I  watched you succumb to the disease

RIP son

RIP my heart

RIP to the relationship we might have had

I LOVE YOU

And then I unravel

Let’s be grateful for what we have,more or less;someone somewhere is having it worse that we are.

On a lighter note,happy new month and merry xmas in advance.May each day of the rest of the year be filled with good  gifts and a heart of love for us.

If interested in the storyhttp:// https://m.fanfiction.net/s/10792152/1/Nightmare-Before-Christmas
It’s a wonderful story by a wonderful author