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When I was young my momma used to tell me

To be patient

To wait

Cuz I was different,

That I am special,

That I am more

But I didn’t understand

I wanted to be like everybody else

I wanted to belong

Cuz then being ‘more’ sounded lonely

Lonely and uncool

So I mostly I ignored

Made mistakes and got fucked over

So I learnt my lesson


Till I wised up

At least to some extent

If that was what belonging meant

Then sign me out

Now older I echo my momma

I am different

And I want more

It sometimes still get lonely though

Guess the path really is narrow

Even so

Am not settling



Being insecure is a burden

To be strong is not easy

To live is war

Death is a risk

Peace has a price

Chaos crushes all

To merry is to be happy

Tears is the leaking of the heart

Life is a mystery

It’s inhabitant seeks to unravel

From foundation to the peak

From the lowest to the highest

One thing is common to all

Nobody knows tomorrow

Nobody can change the past

Everybody wants a better future

Everybody has a burden

Keep up

Or fall away

Note  one

Nothing last forever

Note  two

Love conquer all

Note three

Love can destroy all

Note  four

All was made by ,through& for Him

The strong and the weak

The broken and the whole

All He aches for




A place inside

Locked and well bolted

Nobody sees it

Nobody knows

So much potential

So much power

Tap tap………

Goes it’s knuckle against the door

Let’s us out

We were play

Chimes the melodious voice

Security upgrade that’s what happen

But nothing stays hidden for ever

Scared of what it could be

Good or bad

The answer won’t come with the walls up

But I don’t wanna be the cat curiosity killed

We do good cuz we know there’s bad

So maybe a prison break won’t be the end of the world

If it’s good ….sweetfuckingtastic

If it’s bad……



Not today

Nobody said the world has to be conquered today right?

And if the day of the lord comes first

Mercy lord!!!

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Even though I don’t like too colorful or bright things or too much detail going on (it hurts my eyes and sometimes brain) but still…….wow , that looks beautiful.

Another book not on my August tbr but head butted itself into my August reads, IT ENDS WITH US BY COLLEEN HOOVER.

This is completely spoilers free and am not even going to add the blurb cuz I would love if everyone  read it the way I did ,with absolutely no idea what the book was about. I didn’t read the blurb and had no idea what the book was about except that it’s romanced themed and that I got when I peeked at the last page to know if the ending is something I can handle emotionally. So I  read  the ending and thought sweet…. I could do with some fluff right now (how wrong I was). I can’t really say much about this book without giving out spoilers but this I can say, it’s a great book and I don’t think anyone can possibly find fault with except maybe wish things had worked out different with  a certain character while still understanding reason things didn’t (someone like me).

What I can say about the book: it’s a romance themed book but not the “he’s perfect and could do no wrong” or “I want him but can’t have him” or even the annoying love triangles that seems to be the craze of the moment. The characters are well developed, mature and most especially real people and with real problems. I really wanna write more about this book but I can’t seem to find the right words that would express how I really feel plus with the no spoilers cap………..

I give it a 5 out 5…….Ryle has definitely made it into my favorite male characters (not for the same reason others are on it, maybe I’ll do a post on my current favorite male characters from a book and actors I’ll like to play them if made into a book…….hmmm….that’s an idea).


How are you? Good ? Great ………. Skirtdiary21


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27 But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise;


God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong.


28 God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things


—and the things that are not—


to nullify the things that are,


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Just wanna say this, the movie AVATER?, spectacular. Just saw it today and wow, such beautiful scenery (and good sense of fashion, breeze flowing in undisturbed, awesome right?). It’ll be fun if a place like that really existed ,don’t mean alien planet but a place that beautiful and uncorrupted. Anyhoo, my logs being a while. Things has being good, ups and downs and all that shindig.

Soul search

Where to start?, no, not tonight. Not for lack but it wouldn’t make sense. It’ll be nice to have something like the bird connection in the movie. Something you can connect to and be one with, no deceptions , no hiding, no insecurities. One thought… sight… heart beat…..perfect harmony. My bed calls


A day of reflection……heavy……caged…….pregnant with promise. A good day. What do you call yours?



“Fate and fortune. Power and passion. What does it take to be the queen of a kingdom when you’re only seventeen?


Maya is cursed. With a horoscope that promises a marriage of death and destruction, she has earned only the scorn and fear of her father’s kingdom. Content to follow more scholarly pursuits, her whole world is torn apart when her father, the Raja, arranges a wedding of political convenience to quell outside rebellions. Soon Maya becomes the queen of Akaran and wife of Amar. Neither roles are what she expected: As Akaran’s queen, she finds her voice and power. As Amar’s wife, she finds something else entirely: Compassion. Protection. Desire…


But Akaran has its own secrets—thousands of locked doors, gardens of glass, and a tree that bears memories instead of fruit. Soon, Maya suspects her life is in danger. Yet who, besides her husband, can she trust? With the fate of the human and Otherworldly realms hanging in the balance, Maya must unravel an ancient mystery that spans reincarnated lives to save those she loves the most…including herself.”


Four main points from this book;

1.IT’S THE MOST CONFUSING BOOK HAVE READ SO FAR: There are names in this book I can’t pronounce (actually I think there’s not a name in the book I can pronounce). The beings in the novel has confusing names that does nothing in telling what they are and what they do and even the ones that were explained? I think the explanation just makes things worst. And sometimes the poetry can be sweet, swoon worthy but also choking and disconcerting the same paragraph  ,


“Although I had never envisioned marriage, I had thought of love. Not the furtive love I heard muffled in the corners or rooms of some of the harem wives. What I wanted was a connection, a shared heartbeat that kept rhythm across oceans and worlds. I didn’t want the prince from the folktales or some milk-skinned, honey-eyed youth who said his greetings and proclaimed his love in the same breath. I wanted a love thick with time, as inscrutable as if a lathe had carved it from night and as familia”

“I want to share whole worlds with you and write your name in the stars.”

“I want to measure eternity with your laughter.”

The fu*k that means?

I have no understanding of the world or the palace, am still trying to wrap my head around a room/world? and already am being thrust into another(Calm the muse and gimme a chance to catch up will you?) .

2.MAYA IS A FOOL: How many times could one person possibly screw up before wising up(her screw up’s just two but it feels like a hundred), I mean hasn’t she heard the advice not to rush into judgment before you’ve had all your facts?.what’s worst is her judgments are usually not the easy ones that can easily be retraced but huge world damming decisions that not only affects her but her ‘love’ at best and the ‘world’ at worst. I mean seriously I felt like reaching my hand inside to smack some sense into her like ‘girl cool your horses, get your facts straight before plunging the knife into the tree or jumping into the reincarnation pool….seriously!’.  And of course all is forgiving and wrongs are made right but has she really learnt her lessons ?. Also Amar’s the most boring love interest have ever read in a book with all the power he has, I mean I can’t pin point just one thing to make him stand out. Sure he’s powerful and all but all I can remember about him is him pinning away for his love and “standing beside her,not in front or behind but in front’. I mean seriously? (I find my self saying this a lot throughout the book). I hate to compare books cuz that’s unwise and unfair but I can’t help myself here, Tamlin too needed saving but even in his “captivity” he still managed to project power and while Feyre was doing the work trying to free him, Sarah J Mass still managed not to let him go into oblivion in the process. I think authors are so engulfed in trying to make badass heroines that they sometimes write the hero into oblivion. Feyre is powerful but so is Tamlin and  Rhys is another level of badass, he probably gave the word meaning.


3.I RATE IT 3 OUT OF 5: Despite it’s shortcomings  I still enjoyed reading the book. It gave a fresh kind of view into human character, shortcomings and defects , how powerful a split moment decision can be . Whether for good or evil. And also the consequences that can come with them. Because it’s a book with an ending things get sorted but in real life things don’t always happen like that. Split second decisions that takes us away from things that could have made us happy for the rest of our life, things that could have brought us to completion and truly quench the aches of our heart. Life is very precarious and sometimes we don’t realize it, like the thread in the novel a yank could lead either way. This novel really stirred me up and it’s a cool breeze from the usual fairy-tale story (though I love me fairy-tales, life is hard enough. Books are means of escape). I really enjoy this book despite the fact it was confusing and choking a times (there’s a glossary at the end though, I didn’t read it but it’s available. Just thought to mention that ), I don’t like things that confuse me ( it’ll bug at me till I find answers ….stressful) I still like the book so 3 out of 5 and I’LL STILL RECOMMEND IT (never going to reread it though).

4.KUDOS TO ROSHANI CHOKSHI- I  think this’s her first book (I could be wrong, don’t quote me on that) and it really is not bad for a debut, definitely not less just too much.

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